"HIM" Poetry by Byron Bankhead Jr.

  Marcus Emel  from the project "Smoke and Mirrors" by Johnnie Ray Kornegay III | Body Art by  Curron Aspernaut Gajadhar

Marcus Emel from the project "Smoke and Mirrors" by Johnnie Ray Kornegay III | Body Art by Curron Aspernaut Gajadhar

HIM

By Byron Bankhead Jr.

You ever crave
the presence of someone
The way their energy fills
in the same space as yours
The smell of the top of his head
the warmth coming
from under his jawbone
right above his collar bone

 You miss that hold on you
(And I’m not talkin about
how he pulls you in closer
when he feels you
moving in his sleep hold)
I’m talmbout that
“Ima stay my ass at home
on a Saturday night” hold
That part 

Should I text him
And say what
I want you here
I just wanna feel you
near me
That’ll translate into Netflix & Chill
which honestly is a possibility
because you on me
is problematic to my morals
I’ll let you have
whatever you want out of me
and I’ll have
no shame about it
Til tomorrow
when I’m contemplating
is it too soon
to start sending good morning texts
and are we even
“on that level” 

You ever crave that attention
All of his thoughts
racing behind his intentions
as his eyes bring up
the tail end
Those looks do it to me
Looking
into my bare soul
as our bare bodies
slide into each other
at the crack of dawn
as the morning dew
accumulates
and the sky spreads
like yearning thighs
A high
like no other

You ever crave
his mystery
Those answers to those questions
that you don’t wanna ask
How it feel
Is it good to ya
What are we
You aim to marry
I️ don’t know
what I️ want anymore,
the answers
or the feeling of knowing
I️ have reason to ask those things
Either way it goes
I️ don’t wanna learn his secret
I️ wanna grow in it
Come alive in the darkened soil
his vulnerability
with little to no sunlight
and daily communication
to feed my roots
The same ones grounded in this
This thing
This man
You ever crave
the presence of someone
The way their energy
fills in the same space as yours
The smell
of the top of his head
the warmth
coming
from under his jawbone
right above his collarbone
You miss that hold on you
That part


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Byron Bankhead Jr. is a singer, poet, dancer, activist, and student at Middle Tennessee State University where he is earning his Social Work degree. He plans to work in the Dept. Of Children Services until gaining the experience to branch of and start his own non-profit organization focusing on mentoring young LGBT youth of color. He's living in Murfreesboro, TN but hails from Jackson, TN.